The Upside of Heartbreak

Have you ever suffered from a broken heart? I have and it is a recent occurrence. I didn't think that I would ever have the pleasure considering I had decided long ago never to trust anyone with my heart. It kind of sneaks up on you. You meet someone, you discover that "someone" is really kind of cool. You start talking to "someone" and the next thing you know, you are spending a lot of time, effort and energy trying to really get to know "someone". "KABOOM": You've just entrusted your heart to another. Now let me tell you this; when you trust another with you heart you also begin to realize that neither one of you is perfect and you accept that there will be problems but they don't seem that bad because you fancy yourself in love. As things progress and continue on you either become closer to "someone" or "someone" completely pulls away from you citing bad experiences in the past and some confusion, none if which is your fault or is anything you should be paying the price for. Time is always a great healer for this problem and as long as you are a patient person you really don't have anything  but time for the person you love.

What happens when time turns into isolation and months without contact? At this point you should accept the facts: it is probably not going to work out. Hehehe, not me!!! I want to hang in there, I try harder to be understanding and I hope that soon "someone" will come around. Ladies, this is just a bad idea and turns into nothing but tears and heartbreak. This was the exact moment I had tried so hard to protect myself from for my whole life and guess what? It Didn't Kill Me! It hurt like hell and there was a lot of confusion as to why it had happened (like the rest of you didn't see that coming?). I guess this is why they say "Love Is Blind", I personally think that it is deaf and dumb as well because I certainly was.

So, at this point you are probably asking, "What was that about the upside of heartbreak again?" Guess what, there is an upside. You learn more about yourself  in this one experience than you could ever imagine. I now know that I have the capability to be a strong and outgoing person, I would have died in my cave if I hadn't put myself out there and been social. I have become more daring and bold and I am doing things I never thought I would have the guts to do.  I can survive MY worst case scenario (the broken heart) and as cliched as it sounds, it really is better to have experienced love and lost it, than to never experienced it at all. I know that my heart hurts and I know that it will take some time for it to fully heal, buy I wouldn't trade my time with "someone" for anything in the world.  He truly did change me for the better and for that, I will always be grateful.